Thursday, January 12, 2012

giving grace

Reading something today triggered an aha moment for me. I was caught off guard by a statement that made me truly look at myself and my walk with the Lord. I felt a little judged by the comment and yet lately I have felt the need to share with others about my opinion about their choices and forgetting that they too are on their own journey's with the Lord. Okay so I guess what I am trying to say is that we are all, as believers, on this journey of honoring and loving God. We want to do our best in what life he has given us. Some are called at different times to do different things. You can get this overwhelming feeling that whatever it is that God has called for you is what God has called everyone to do but yet, "why are you the only one doing it." I have placed judgement on others because of this exact feeling. Growing up I grew away from God because of people like me. Judgemental, self righteous, and having this "better than" attitude! What has happened that has made me feel like I can place judgement on others?! I have turned into what I once hated! Seeing this quote made me feel bad about myself, yet I know that God has called me to be right here where I am. He has showed me to be patient for what He is doing. All the while continue to grow closer to him by doing the things that are placed right in front of me, and I am okay with that. But how is it that I can't accept others and their walk with God. I am quick to judge. Now most of the time I keep this judgement between me and the Lord and yes sometimes Noah, and oh yes sometimes a close girlfriend ( either way considered gossip...repent!)....but yesterday I went straight to the person that I felt was choosing a life away from God. I sank my teeth into them and truly hurt them because I thought that I had a right! Wow. What a double standard. I get upset for others placing judgement on me yet here I am doing the same thing.
I have learned that God loves you. He wants you to grow and change into what He wants you to. I however need to only look at one person's decisions...MINE! I feel terrible and yet grateful at the same time of what God has revealed to me. Remembering to always look at myself and my choices in life. Will those choices burn to the ground when judgement day comes or will they withstand God's approval of what He says is good. We are all on our own journeys with the Lord. As believers our walks look differently from one another. God places desires or convictions on your heart in order for you to see what He wants from you. It is hard living in this world that is full of sin. It is crazy how you can feel so right about something then get slammed down to this layer of scum that is on the ground and that you are now apart of. Yep eating humble pie!
We are sinful creations that have been given grace because of Jesus' death on the cross. What an amazing gift! I will seek to love others right where they are!!

Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.
Colossians 3:12-14

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